So, today has been the worst day ever. It’s so hard struggling this much with almost everything. Any way, today my self-esteem went right down again. I was standing next to this little skinny girl. Like, she was so perfectly petite and I seen myself in the mirror and was like.. It wasn’t nice I felt so horrible inside. See I don’t want to lose weight to be skinny, but to be small. Does that make sense? I just want to be smaller than what I am. I’unno.. Just right now, I really want to curl up. My family are the upmost worst. I really don’t fit in with these guys. I’m completely different personality wise. I’m so different from the ‘Gallacher’ way. ;[ That’s what singles me out and no matter how hard I try to fake it, I won’t fit in with ‘em.